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Letter to God

19 Jan 2015

Truth & Foster Care

God,

You know our struggles, you share our concerns, and our pain. When we cry, you cry. When we smile, you smile. When we mourn, you mourn, for that is how passionate and loving you are. You created humans in hope that we too would choose to have a relationship with you; with freewill intended. God, you have invited us into your home and have offered us love, compassion, liberty, freedom, and an abundant amount of grace. In a world of chaos, grief, loss, hate and sadness; in a world where the earth is crying out for your presence, in a world where your children are homeless, hungry, sick and in need you have sent us leaders and given your word of hope, unconditional love and peace. You don’t force us to serve you, for you have given us freewill.

My prayer tonight is that you strengthen your people for we are in the time of darkness and pain. My prayer tonight is that you restore us as your people and keep us close to the cross. My prayer tonight is that you continue to honor your word and reign justice and everlasting love over your people. My prayer tonight is that for every child and adult that is homeless, hungry, sick and in need that you provide for them and establish life long connections so that they may be able to live a life of purpose. My prayer tonight is that you hold your people close to your heart, wipe the tears frp, their faces of those plagued with grief, death and pain. My prayer tonight is that you send out your angels to cover the unrighteous, reign on the just and the unjust. My prayer tonight is that you speak to the heart of our leaders and those in authority. My prayer tonight is that you save the unsaved, open the eyes of those who are blind, open the ears to those who are deaf and show your light. My prayer tonight is that you raise up leaders from the average. My prayer tonight is that you provide shelter, grace, and education. My prayer tonight is that somepne reads this blog and seeks your presence. My prayer tonight is that you establish community among all people. My prayer tonight is the separation and segregation be dismantled. My prayer tonight is that you create communities and opportunity.

Money will not solve our problems. No. We need you to raise up leaders, speak to the hearts of your people, bring an end to war, share your light, and continue showering us with your loving grace. We need you to be our counselor, lawyer, doctor and teacher. You created this world and everything in it. You created us for a relationship with you and I believe that within all the bad, there is more good. Hear our prayers, and our cries. I love you, and I promise to be a light as long as you make a covenant with me, in order for change and justice for all.

In Jesus name, all hearts say

AMEN

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Change your thinking, Change your life

6 Jan 2015

Truth & Foster Care

“If I continue to think as I have always thought, I will continue to act as I’ve always acted. If I continue to act as I’ve always acted, I will continue to get what I’ve always gotten.” – Anonymous

It’s a new year and I challenge you with hope. that you’ll challenge yourself to live a life of purpose on purpose. Start by changing the way you think. Positive thoughts. For “what a man think, so is he!” If you want something new for your life in 2015 “think it” until you believe it and then it will be so.

I believe 2015 will be a prosperous year. If we decide to take control of our lives and decide, this year will not be like any other years, it will change our thoughts, change our actions and give us a better result. Don’t be discouraged. Don’t let anyone stop you from being a better you. Do what will make your dream and goals come true.

2015 is OUR year!

Domenia L Dickey

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My forever family

31 Dec 2014

Truth & Foster Care

Today 12/31/2014 is my last day as a ward of the state. I have officially aged out of Connecticut’s foster care system. I am on my own! No more social workers, stressful family visits and or six month reviews. At age 17 I meet a family that would become my forever family. I remember telling them that I was not meant for a family and that I didn’t know how to function within a family. . I warned my mom and family of my mental health, that it drains me and the people around me; every negative reason I could think of was my excuse because history had taught me that I was no good and didn’t deserve a family.

They took me in anyways. It was hard, I’m hospitalized often, we fought, I moved out, and moved back in. Some days I wanted to never talk to them again and we even hurt each other’s feelings. However, they didn’t get give up on me. Sometimes I wish they did. My mom said “you are the daughter we chose and sometimes families fight.” I’m still getting adjusted

Not to mention I have a “Dad.” I’m too blessed.

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Letter to Domenia

15 Dec 2014

Truth & Foster Care

So I must be honest and say, I have my struggles. I struggle with mental health. I was diagnosed with psychosis (auditory and visual hallucination), mood disorder nos, adhd and borderline personality disorder. It’s a struggle to get out of bed. It’s a struggle to complete simple tasks. Like showering. Currently, I can’t work more than 30 hours a week. Which makes living hard. I am a full time student, in therapy, with two part time jobs.

I struggle with feeling alone and feeling abandon. I am very hard on myself, and expecting myself to be the best. Because good is never enough. I want to live a life driven on PURPOSE. To be effective, a motivator, history maker, public voice, leader, advocate and teacher.

I want what seems to be impossible. One day I hope to attend UCLA, American University or George Washington University law school. To talk with young people in foster care with low self esteem, I want to be an “ear” for the next generation. I want them to succeed and help them so that eventually they can help someone else too.

I am not sure why I wrote this post but I guess I wrote it to say:

Dear Domenia,

I love you. You’re strong and it’s okay to recognize that at time you’ll need help. Nothing happens over night. You have survived foster care, abuse, rape and neglect; you’ve been homeless and poor and in yet, you pull through. Life will not always be this hard. There is a sun over the mountain. God is with you and loves you. You will attend great universities and earn your degrees. You’ll reach millions and inspire the lives of young people. You can make it and you will make it. If no one says that they love you, know that I (you) love you. I (you) am cheering for you. I (you) will never let you down. Life is a journey, a play with no rehearsal. you’ve made it thus far keep going until God calls your number. It’s okay to cry for it does not mean that you are weak. You will succeed ‘n make it. You’re, your only road block. God Bless. May God send his angles to cover you in your time of pain, depression, sadness and success.

Love,

YOURSELF (DOMENIA L. DICKEY)

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Letter to God

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