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Now, You!

28 Jul 2022

Truth & Foster Care

Now I’m alive to tell the story of how I’ve overcome A victor and not a victim written story The truth about my daily struggles and how it’s met with mercy and grace This isn’t a poem. This is more of a narrative written by a broken person being made whole My freedom doesn’t come from the world and doesn’t come from the words of men I’m not lucky, and my resiliency isn’t a genetic default but a gift of His Spirit A gift of His grace To people who read my blog and my writings, times are tough, and relief seems to be a ways away Stay encouraged. Lean on your foundation for dear life. I live paycheck to paycheck I live on food stamps and a monthly gov’t check I never know if my benefits will be cut or continued. But, I lean on supernatural faith. I often have to ask myself whether I buy eggs this week or soymilk I recently lost my job So, understand, you are not alone. This is what I tell myself daily. The creator of the universe understands. Despite the current dilemma, I live with my bills paid, and I have more than enough food. How? I blame Jesus, for he says, “he will never forsake you (me), nor leave you as an orphan” I am writing more of my faith not to push it on people but because it’s my foundation. Who Jesus is to me, Buddha or Allah might be for someone else. I do not have the authority to call any of these deities wrong. They’re essential. I am in a spot to say it’s essential to have a spiritual creator and community to belong to. Even if it’s a community of no faith, a community to belong to is necessary. When we are together, we share the burden of life and strengthen one another. Times are tough, and we shouldn’t go through them alone. I struggle with bipolar disorder and schizophrenia and losing my job triggered an episode. It’s hard. Some days I’m energetic. Some days I want to sleep. Many days I feel there isn’t a point to it all. But I actively push through these negative thoughts because of my faith in Jesus and His Holy Spirit. I believe in Scripture. I know if God can be with me on the mountain tops, he is with me in the valley lows. I’ll fear no evil. I wish we would look at each other past the IG and FB pictures, ask what’s in your fridge and cabinets, and get honest about our struggles in life. That’s what people need, not this superficial stuff. It’s not helping us but tearing our souls apart. I’m being honest. I have not been overcome by the words of my testimony. I believe there will be more job opportunities. I will finish this current class with a minimum of an A-. I will stand firm on the rock of my faith, as will you. Be encouraged. Be honest. Be real. You will make it my brothers, my sisters, and nonbinary siblings. I’m praying for you as Jesus prayed for believers. I’m praying that you succeed, your money goes further, you enjoy your family, enjoy your job, find a new job, children and you succeed in school, you come to a flourishing end, you are equipped, well able, anointed, appointed, God loves you, God has grace, mercy for you. You will become all you set your mind, heart, and attitude to become. I’m praying in Jesus’ name over your life, family, career, and children, and you are happy. Be strong; you will walk and not weary; you will walk and not faint. -Amen .

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Have a new perspective: You can handle it!

20 Jul 2022

faith

God says in scripture, “weapons may be formed against us, but they will not prosper.

I am not sure why life hits us so hard. I am unsure why there are diseases, corruption, mass shootings, cancer, or death. Nor do I have the answer for it. I believe in a higher power who has the answer but will not always give it until we go through the trial and gain a new perspective.

I genuinely believe every trial and circumstance is meant to build us if we allow it. We can sit on the sidelines, have pity, become overwhelmed with anxiety or depression, or make a conscious decision that “I’m going to look at this differently and glean what I can and move onto my next assignment.

No devil in hell can stop you from reaching your true potential, not poverty, not illness, not disability or circumstances. You can only stop yourself! We are our own worst enemy and that saying is true.

I was recently fired from a job I loved working with adults with autism, intellectual disabilities, and developmental disabilities who live with co-existing medical and mental illnesses. I worked hard and followed the books. Two weeks before my probation was over, I was let go with the explanation that “I wasn’t a good fit.” I was depressed initially and stopped working out and eating. Then I listened to a sermon and some worship music and realized my job isn’t the source of my identity, nor is it responsible for my happiness. I am, and God alone is. I felt free.

I also realized there will be other jobs, and my career will continue. My destiny is not over. I am not less of a man, less anointed, less valuable, or unworthy. I am a child of God, his prize possession, the apple of his eye, and he loves me and has a great future planned for me. With more bumps and pit stops ahead. It’s important to remember that it’s a “pit stop and not a pitfall.” I had every right to feel every emotion I was feeling, but that didn’t give me the ok to stop living and have a pity party. If I can survive foster care, survive and live with bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, and anxiety, be in my first year of an MSW program, and overcome homelessness, I can overcome losing a job. God has gotten me through all that, and I learned so much from this job, about the population I like to work with, the hours I work better at, I gained my CPR/First Aid certification, and learned how to work while living with a mental illness. I gained so much. I’m grateful to God for this experience. If I could do it all over again, I would. I’m not bitter or angry. Nor am I sad. I am at peace with my creator, knowing he is in control and has crowned my life with favor, and my life will go on.

As will yours! You’re going to make it. Keep dreaming. No dream is too big for the creator to make come true. No goal is out of reach. Nothing is limiting you.

Have a new perspective: With God, you can, and you will handle this!

Domenia

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Kwanzaa: Nia

1 Jan 2022

Truth & Foster Care

Nia: Purpose A Prayer for you.

I pray 2022 is Better than any year you have ever experienced in your life. You have a purpose! You were not put on this earth to just live a mediocre life but to be a world-changer, and history maker in your own unique way. If no one ever tells you this know I believe in you and am praying for your success and happiness. I pray for you have the power to endure every trial and hard time that comes. As pastor Steven says “you’re either entering a storm, leaving a storm, or about to enter a storm.” I pray for you to open the door to joy. I pray your family is blessed your children are blessed and your children and their children are blessed. I pray this year instead of seeking material items that fade you seek smiles and make memories. I pray for you to accomplish goals and are not self-critical. Please know we’re all on a journey in life at different stages and no one is better than the other no matter the milestone, degree, income amount, social status, or political party. I pray you to find faith in a higher power. It may be different than mine but something outside of yourself and the human construct. I pray you educate yourself on something new become friends with someone different; someone of a different skin tone, religion, political party, and social class. I pray for you to discover the mysteries this life has to hold. For it is in the beholder of breath that these things are revealed.

You have a purpose. I know a part of mine but every day and with every class and obstacle I overcome I discover more of it. Time your testimony and treasure who you unveil your testimony to. I believe God has a designed life for you to live an abundant life and it will be great. God loves you. Whether you believe in him or not. Jesus loves you. That’s the point of Easter’s Resurrection. I pray that whomever you call your God is kind, gentle, and loving towards you and your family. I believe we are connected for a reason greater than our own four walls of life but we have to open the doors to find out. God is knocking and wants us to answer the call to live; God wants us to live. Live abundantly, graciously. gratefully and loving.

You have a purpose.

Joyous Kwanzaa

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Getting a little Stronger!

14 May 2021

faith, My Story, Topic Thought.

I can hardly see the words I type as tears fill my eyes.

Depression has come to visit me yet again.

I can no longer fake a smile.

I can no longer fake to give a damn anymore

I just want a hug and to be told “just wait, it’s what happens when you wait that matters”

I’m asking for too much

So I’ll just tell myself.

Everyday I’m getting a little stronger.

It’s okay to cry, let it out

I miss having family I miss having friends

Pastor talks about waiting on Jesus and I listen thinking how much longer do I have to wait?

I still have boobs

I’m still not in grad school

I’m just home making smoothies sending pics while people work and are living life and I’m almost 30 living off of disability.

I feel empty, unequal, worthless, lazy, stupid, just a bum

I physically am still recovering from a car accident from years ago. I’m recovering emotionally from a past that has left scars. I’m in recovery

In yet I say to Jesus, “I’m gonna wait on you”

I’m depressed but not faithless

I’m depressed but not hopeless

I’m depressed but not out

I’m depressed but going to keep fighting.

My faith will rise and like dust so will I

I’m choosing to be grateful that I have income. That I made one friend. That I have mom’s and a very special mentor mommy. That I have food. I’m going to be thankful that I have gadgets and coffee. I’m going to be grateful that I have a bed finally to myself. I’m going to be grateful I have a bunny and turtle. I’m going to be thankful that I have Jesus. I’m going to be grateful that I have Continuum, Elevation Church, Lakewood Church.

I’m depressed but choosing to fight every depressing thought with a thankful thought. I’m getting a little stronger. I just had to get this out.

People depression is real. And my medication will be adjusted and it will help until then I will wait on the Lord and be thankful. Because this could be a whole lot worse.

Pray I sleep Tonight.

Domenia Zih

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Now, You!

Have a new perspective: You can handle it!

Kwanzaa: Nia

Getting a little Stronger!